hi everyone!.... its been 10yrs since i last blog.... guesss most ppl have stopped visiting my blog.... hahaha..... anyway new semester has just started 2 days ago.... quite lost actually.... and also scared... cause its back to icas and exams.... this is alot more harder to score... hmmm but must still work very hard! cause i'm in YEAR 3 NOW! haha just a while more i'll be graduating..... haha if everything goes on smoothly....

Anyway this time back in school..... found out that i have lost too much.... lost many friends.... lost many happy times.... i guess only 2 ppl will noe wat i am talking abt... haha one is my dear and the other my cousin... hmmm sometimes i realy tink that i am just not so fated to have friends.... many a times.... ppl whom i think is my close friends... something will just turn wrong and i will lose them.... or perhaps its just my problem... A problem that i never realise right from the start....

But i just dun understand..... why friends and friends can be so fake and pretend like nothing happen... dun understand y they can act like they are your buddies but act they may not even treat u as one... they can hide things away from you when u guys can be not just one or two years friends but alot more than that.... honestly i feel that this is such a complex issue.... guess if i noe the answers to those qns i wouldnt be here now asking these qns and wldnt be in this state... true??? guess u all will agree.... hai...

alright its abt time class starting.... was waiting for class to start act.... having night class today.... haha.... alright will come drop by and blog again soon..... study hard ppl!

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
I figured i must have been such a child
You never know how much i've been around

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!