Yesterday afternoon I went to meet siaomei to go back to stc for their 75th anniversary fun fair.. apparently i tink its been ages since i went back... almost 3-4yrs i tink... When we arrived at the school, we realised lots of changes... be it the environment, facilities, and also the people around...

Without us knowing, we suddenly realise that its been 5yrs since we have left STC... Both of us had lots of thoughts in our mind... and of coz were hoping to be able to go back to our lifes then... Those were the times we really had fun and lots of memorable memories together... No worries, no troubles... Unlike now... well guess during those times... the only thing we worry or get upset about is our grades and results esp prelims and O'levels... other than that... nothing else much..

We met many seniors, juniors and of coz friends of our batch... Nice to see all of them again in stc... Taken quite a few photos using sm's camera...

After going back... I began to be very emo and upset.. thought about alot of things... and thought of some friendship I have lost? I used to be so naive to think that my some friends will never leave me no matter wat and our friendship would last... but i guess... like i say... was too naive that time... looking back it is really a waste? pity? or regret that i couldnt keep some friendships going on...

I really wished that things could turn back to before... or we can all erase watever that have happened and be back like before... but i do noe that it is not going to happen... and all the good times we had will just have to be kept as memories... As for the friendship will also be something that i will remember that i once had such good friends... and i thank them for giving me those good times and going through my bad and good times with me... listening to all my nonsense, complains, grumbles....

If you girls are reading my blog... I hope you know that I am talking about u... To everyone, they think that we will continue to stay as very good friends no matter what.. but unfortunately... i wouldnt say i have been replaced although i would say that in the past... but now to me I would feel tat it is tat you girls found someone else that can understand you better and probably connect better... and for that i am happy for you girls... :)

Well this is quite an emo entry... coz i really do feel that way.... hai... but i guess we have to grow up and now that we have... we should understand better and learn to cherish things around us and not cry or be sad when its gone... Agree??

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
I figured i must have been such a child
You never know how much i've been around

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!